Community Service Announcement

I have been doing some thinking over the past couple of days about this blog and where exactly it has been going. I have been quite pleased with the amount of readers it has accumulated in a relatively short amount of time. I'm also pleased that people seem to be grateful to me about certain things I have written on here. I am, however, also aware that many of the articles/entries I post in here have the tendency to paint a rather bleak and depressing portrayal of my life. I guess, before I continue to blog here, I want to say that this is not necessarily the case. I don't hate my life or anything. In fact, I think I have quite a privileged, comfortable and cushy life. I don't write in here to hurt, insult or shock anyone. I write in here to be honest, to come to terms with my own feelings, and to continue to develop and grow as a Korean adoptee and a member two ever changing, modern societies.

What? Two societies??

This blog often appears to be somewhat depressing and very confronting, because as a Korean adoptee and an individual, I feel as though I live between two worlds - one being the modern, western Australia that I know and the other being the foreign yet extremely familiar and homely S.Korea. I am forever trying to find the balance between my two identities. This is a personal matter to me. It is not a way for me to lash out and say I think my parents have done me any wrong or anything to that extent. I love my parents and my sister very very much, and I know they feel the same for me.

But I think that an existence as an adoptee is a very different one to that of those who aren't adopted. This blog is a way for me to personally come to terms with certain aspects of my life and myself, along with things that adoptees struggle with that others do not. I really hope that one day I can be totally comfortable with who I am, my place in the world and my sense of self. This journey is often just as confronting to me as this blog may seem to you. But in making all this information public, I hope to not only deal with my own inner demons (and voices), but to connect with other adoptees (something I haven't had a lot of), adoptive parents and support networks and to inform those who may be looking for the voice/opinions of an adoptee who has come before (or after) themselves or their child/ren/relative/s.

But I do just want to make it clear that my life here is nothing short of wonderful and privileged. It's just that... as an adoptee, I struggle with what it means to be between two very different worlds - to have one half of me in one world, and the other in another. I'm trying very hard to find a happy medium and to somehow combine the two, but until I find a way to do that, all I can do is keep searching. ^_^

Thankyou for reading. I do appreciate my readers and their thoughts, opinions and comments.